Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
Hello. So alone in my bed Alone listening to nightly whispers Alone in my thoughts Alone standing in court Alone I stand and fight Alone I pray for rainbow lights
Alone in the morning I awake Alone I celebrate my joys Alone I cry out my sadness Alone I voice out my fears Alone in strenght
Alone in wealth Alone in good health Alone I try to understand Alone I seek knowledge Alone I share what is mine Alone I try not to be alone Alone when my time has come, I pass away
Now adays I feel so alone. All my friends now have boyfriends. Each one also preoccupied with something like clubs or their boyfriends or I'm just not good enough friends with them to want to hang out with them.
My bestfriend got a boyfriend yesterday. She is now dating my ex-crush. Me and her related really well together, but since he came into the picture...its as if she is casting me aside whenever he appears, I barely have ANY time alone with her. Everything changed after yesterday to.
I annouced to my friend that I was bi. Which I regret now, they don't include me like they use to. Which makes me sadder, I couldn't only get them to pay attention to me when I told my bestfriend that I've been feeling sad everytime I am alone, so she tried to make me feel better.
They say that they don't think of me differently but I can tell they think that everytime I talk to them, they think I am hitting on them. Which I'm not. I don't like them like that.
Now I'm writing this because I'm to sad to do anything beside listen to sad music and sulk. If you can't tell, I extremely dislike being lonely. I try to emerse myself into conversations with my friends. If I'm alone I start to think more and more about how alone I am and how my friends have slowly started to leave me alone. I can't handle being alone, it makes me so depressed.
I complain about my friends a lot, but for me, their the only ones that I connect to. the ones I feel comfortable enough to gossip and talk to without having to block myself. Just telling them I was bi was a HUGE step of trust I gave them. They broke my trust today, no matter how they thought of it.
Typing this is making me sadder, but I just wanted to rant about my friends again. Also my trust issues, I seem shy once you meet me in real life because I don't trust you.
