Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
The reason for the title? Because I have a lot of questions about people.
Like why are they such douchebags? Do they take joy in making other peoples lives miserable? Do they like to make others feel angry and mad? All of these questions because my Dad decided that, even though we have like four other televisions in the house, he had to watch channels go by on the one that I was watching. He could've gone into any other room and watched channels go by, but NOOOO he had to be a mega-douche and yell at me to get me off of the TV.
Another question is why are people so hipocritical? The reason I am asking this one is because a friend I've known since grade six decided to turn to me and ask "Why are you in here? Is it because ____ is in here?" in a very she-has-more-friends-then-you-so-fuck-off tone. Yet the next day I'm scanning my facebook and lo and behold! Douchebag #2 is going to the same fucking school next year as _____! Not only that but she is going into the same program! This wouldn't be such a big deal if...oh I don't know? The school that _____ is going to wasn't one that you had to get an appliaction acception and have A-A+ grades. Douchebag #2 wasn't even interested in going to that school untill _____ said that her parents were making her go!
ANOTHER question is why do people seek fucking attention? I mean really. Don't go and pretend to be a fucking emo kid and act fucking bi-polar! There is a difference between real problems and 'real' problems. I mean if your friends walk away in a group, you don't just fucking stand there! Go with them, they aren't going to expect you to stand there staring at them like a fucking idoit before running into the bathroom to cry! Do something! Friendships are about give and take! Some people really piss me off! Espically fake emo kids who are like "Wah my life sucks because my friend walked away from me!" *cuts*. I know a guy who stared cutting because he couldn't feel anything besides pain because he fucked his life up so bad that no one could fix it. He did drugs, smoked, drank, his parents and sister hated him. He was failing in school, his girlfriend dumped him. His grandparents wouldn't speak to him when they came to visit! nothing! The only way to turn him around was when he finally almost killed himself but cutting to deep! He survived because me and his sister gave him some blood!
I mean really people. Don't harm yourself for stupid things, don't even harm yourself if you think your life is a shitty ass place with no one who loves you!
I mean really.
xx signed off at 5:59 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2010
RPing and end of Summer.
Yo.
Hey guys! Sorry, I've been dealing with family and Rping and having a life! Okay, I haven't really been having a life. During the entire summer, I've went shopping maybe four times, got a day at the spa, hung out with my friends like fourteen times. Besides that I've been sitting on my butt downstairs watching T.V and RPing on some really cool sites.
Also my new friend Cortnie has gotten me OBSESSED with nevershoutnever. It's a really sexy band. I love the songs Can't Stand It, Trouble, On the Brightside, and MANY others. I mean Christofer Drew Ingle has such a sexy voice, he's so talented. I love the lyrics in his songs, there sooo sweet.
Enough fan girling yo...okay a bit more~
"Baby, I Love You I never want to let you go The more I think about The more I want to let you know That everything you do Is Super Fucking Cute And I can't stand it"
Okay end offically.
So schools starting up soon. I'll probably be posting more then though, since there will always be drama where there is school. Boo. I know.
Before I go, I'm going to give the RPers out there. The sexy roleplaying sites: REWIRING You Belong With Me
That's it. I'm Rain Rose Summers on both, and also the admin and Kody Alex Underwood on Rewiring.
That's all.
Peace. Love. Death. Circle of Life. D:
xx signed off at 12:12 AM
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Grandparents
Yo,
Hey pepz. I'm at my grandparents house for an entire week. Pretty boring specially when I forgot my charger for cellphone and laptop at home. I'm on my grandparents main computer right now though. I'll only be using it for a bit since I'm probably going out for lunch in a half hour.
I got twenty bucks from my great-grandma. Random. I know, but it was werid how she did it. She came downstairs, handed me twenty dollars and said it was because she hasn't bought me anything. Then went over to my sister and said the same thing. Making sure that nobody else was downstairs.
It was strange.
In other news I still have an entire TWO WEEKS left of school, not including this week. I am SOOO pissed. They are trying to cram a shit load of shit into two weeks. Including a huge project a field trip and also we have finals and half days. You can sense my exitment. *Sarcasm*
I H.A.T.E my school with a buring passion.
Peace. Love. Death. Circle of Life. D:
xx signed off at 10:32 AM
Friday, June 4, 2010
Lazy
Yo,
Today I have decided to try the speech recognition program, so far it has been incredibly hard. No matter what they say it is extremely difficult to use with a built in microphones. Frustrating as it is an, it’s helpful when you are unable to type at the moment. During today after I got home from hanging out with my friends, I slammed my fingers in my door when coming into my room. So now my fingers are hurting, I feel so stupid.
In other news, I’m not feeling alone anymore. I think it was because my friend got a new boyfriend, and I wasn’t getting as much attention as I did before. That’s just me being selfish though, and thinking that since she’s my best friend that I should get as much attention as she gives him. But that’s not how it works in real world, unfair, no? If he’s around I feel like the third wheel.
But that’s over now. I phoned my boyfriend, and well ex now, and told him that I came out Of The closet so to speak. He was surprised faintly but he said that he wasn’t surprised. I can tell he was though, he has this thing that when he lies his voice gets higher. He didn’t think you can be bi, because you can’t like girls and guys at the same time. Well he’s a liar.
On the downside though, I still haven’t found the perfect song to describe me yet. It’s a pity, my friend’s song is and “My World” by Avril Lavigne which also describes me. But if I find one, I’ll put it up here youtube and all.
So bye,
Peace. L uv. Death. Circle of life. D: and an
xx signed off at 6:33 PM
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Alone
Hello. So alone in my bed Alone listening to nightly whispers Alone in my thoughts Alone standing in court Alone I stand and fight Alone I pray for rainbow lights
Alone in the morning I awake Alone I celebrate my joys Alone I cry out my sadness Alone I voice out my fears Alone in strenght
Alone in wealth Alone in good health Alone I try to understand Alone I seek knowledge Alone I share what is mine Alone I try not to be alone Alone when my time has come, I pass away
Now adays I feel so alone. All my friends now have boyfriends. Each one also preoccupied with something like clubs or their boyfriends or I'm just not good enough friends with them to want to hang out with them.
My bestfriend got a boyfriend yesterday. She is now dating my ex-crush. Me and her related really well together, but since he came into the picture...its as if she is casting me aside whenever he appears, I barely have ANY time alone with her. Everything changed after yesterday to.
I annouced to my friend that I was bi. Which I regret now, they don't include me like they use to. Which makes me sadder, I couldn't only get them to pay attention to me when I told my bestfriend that I've been feeling sad everytime I am alone, so she tried to make me feel better.
They say that they don't think of me differently but I can tell they think that everytime I talk to them, they think I am hitting on them. Which I'm not. I don't like them like that.
Now I'm writing this because I'm to sad to do anything beside listen to sad music and sulk. If you can't tell, I extremely dislike being lonely. I try to emerse myself into conversations with my friends. If I'm alone I start to think more and more about how alone I am and how my friends have slowly started to leave me alone. I can't handle being alone, it makes me so depressed.
I complain about my friends a lot, but for me, their the only ones that I connect to. the ones I feel comfortable enough to gossip and talk to without having to block myself. Just telling them I was bi was a HUGE step of trust I gave them. They broke my trust today, no matter how they thought of it.
Typing this is making me sadder, but I just wanted to rant about my friends again. Also my trust issues, I seem shy once you meet me in real life because I don't trust you.
Anyways, I'm going to sulk.
Peace. Luv. Death. Circle of life. D:
xx signed off at 8:13 PM
Friday, April 9, 2010
ME~XI~CO
Yo,
Hey guys I am back again! Well I haven't been back since sometime in March. You get what I'm trying to say though right? Any ways. I have to do so much fucking homework because my stupid teachers decided that over our spring break we should have homework to do. Even if they know that over 50% of the students go to different places during their spring break and do not want to worry about something stupid like Aztecs or Jazz dance. I hate my teachers. Like I have a furry of rage every time I talk to them. *sighs*
I got a whole bunch of different souvenirs. Like Necklaces, braclets, fans, sombrerro, and a little monkey magnet. I took pictures of flowers and a frog. I kept forgetting my camera when we went places. XD
Talk to ya lata~
xx signed off at 7:05 AM
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Ouch.
Yo,
Hey guys, I dislocated my knee yesterday in Gym. So I hurt right now, not as much as when it was still popped out. But still is stiff and I have NO support on that leg currently, but yeah. Today is the LONGEST day I have had! I mean it feels longer then an actual day. Then again, it's probably because of the stiffiness and aching in my knee, plus I can't do a whole lot since I cannot put pressure on my left foot. Since it hurts super bad. *sighs* Next week I have to get it recheacked to see if I can start particpiating in gym and stuff again. If I do, my Grandma says to put a tenser bandage on both my knees, so it will hold the bones and shizz in place. I hope that it will, since I hate wearing a splint. I should get my mother to place the ice pack back into the freezer.
So I got to skip school today. Hopefully tomorrow I will not be irratable towards my friends. Since I have only walked three times today, well hopped on crutches. Once to go do something, another to eat lunch and another to wash my hair at the sink since I can't take a shower. Because on our shower there is a lip that goes up to my knee, so I can't step into it, plus I don't want to stand for like a half hour on one foot. Seriously I take that long in the shower, even when I'm trying to hurry.
Other than that. I had to go to the hostpital from the school. There is an elevator in my school since the area where the gym is, is around four feet down from the rest of the school with stairs of course. So my friend was like "See you on the other side." You could just see her face go O.O, then I was like "Gee, thanks. Hopefully I will be the one to haunt you and kill you so I can laugh in you're face when I die." We laughed then she told me that she would put my pants belt and cellphone into her locker, since we where in gym. So this morning she dropped it off and forgot to pick up her jacket that she brought with her when she came over to my house for lunch yesterday.
The thing that is werid is that one of my friends has these random 'visions' that are pretty accurate. So yesterday at lunch she had on of an ambulance in front of our school. Then bam! not even two hours later my knee is fucked up and I'm on the aux gym clutching it and attempting not to laugh at my friend's jokes. Which now that I think about it, weren't even really funny. Just the fact that they where saying cheesy jokes in the effort to make me laugh.
Okay when they had me on these gas that makes you numb so you don't really feel anything besides contact. You can't really feel your clothes or like the ground, just if people are touching you. I could feel the paramedics hands on my leg popping it back into place. I could also feel my friends hands on my arm and my moms hands on my hair. (she came while I was all whooooooo). I felt as if I was in a dream! I was so sad when I opened my eyes and found out it wasn't.
